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irc-log_20280417

hey
guess what

owen?
you there?

Yeah yeah, I'm here.
Sorry, I was busy.

what could u possibly be busy with
weve got nothing but time

Unlike a certain someone, my parents aren't insane doomeday preppers

I do actually have to go out to get food, you know.

right
i forgot about that
i wish i could just send you stuff

It's fine.
I'll survive, don't worry.

i was gonna say i found some expired soda downstairs
but now that seems kind of wrong to bring up

Seriously, it's fine. I'm not hurting for junk food exactly, that stuff lasts forever.

right

i dont think ive ever asked u rly
but like
what do u do

What do you mean?

like, when im not around
whatre u doing to kill time

I started playing old RPGs recently.

Ooo youre an rpg fan?

Not really, no.
That's why it took so long for me to start playing them.
I just had the roms for a bunch of random classic RPGs lying around. Like, chronotrigger and shit.

Back when things were still normal, i kept telling myself I'd play 'em eventually.

I suppose i was right.

yeah.
weve got time, if nothing else.

owen?

Yeah?

i think the isolation is starting to get to me
idk how long i can keep doing this

What do you mean?

its just...
i feel like i missed out on everything
i missed out on being a girl
now im missing out on growing up. Again.
Can't even make up for lost time.
i hate it here
why is it us
What the fuck could I possibly have done to deserve this?

I don't know.
It'll be alright.
You'll be alright.
I promise.

i wish i could believe you
i just
i know this is stupid

No, I get it.
I think about this stuff too sometimes.
This is scary, but we just have to keep going i think.
What else is there to do, right?